Happy 3 month Heavenly Birthday Ezra!
Dear Ezra,
We miss you more then we thought possible. Your days here on earth impacted us deeper then we could have imagined. You continue to be talked about on a daily basis by at least one, if not both, of your siblings. They miss you terribly and have a strong desire to hold you and see you once more but we all know even if we could it would never be enough. To them there is no hesitation when asked how many brothers and sisters they have...you will forever be included in that number as Mikayla quickly exclaims "I have two brothers ..." or "We have three children in our family but two of us get to live here and one of us gets to live with Jesus." You are always included in everything that Mikayla and Malachi do such as getting a special art project dedicated to you each time they do one. As much as it stings us as mommy and daddy knowing you won't be here physically to enjoy these art projects we are grateful that you have not only been a big part of our lives and who we are but also theirs.
The rain has let up here in San Diego but the tears continue to come for all of us at different times with the deep pain and hole in our heart we have without you here. We are slowly adjusting to our new life with that forever hole in our heart and it isn't easy, in fact it's harder and brings more feelings then we can put words to. Yet, there is much to rejoice about knowing that because you came into this world we have grown both as a family and individually in ways that would never have been possible without you being part of the Wilde clan. Having you in our lives has opened our eyes in more ways then one but most importantly we have grown with our relationship with God even though our feelings continue to be a battle, many times towards Him. No matter how hard it is, even when the pain seems unbearable at times with no way out, we will continue to run this race to the finish and work through the emotions and feelings day by day, hour by hour. Through this pain and suffering we continue to have peace and joy with the fact that you are also in complete peace and celebrating the best three month birthday possible even though selfishly we wish you were still here. We also have hope and we can't wait to see you again in eternity.
Our hearts are filled with love for you,
Mommy, Daddy, Mikayla, & Malachi
We miss you more then we thought possible. Your days here on earth impacted us deeper then we could have imagined. You continue to be talked about on a daily basis by at least one, if not both, of your siblings. They miss you terribly and have a strong desire to hold you and see you once more but we all know even if we could it would never be enough. To them there is no hesitation when asked how many brothers and sisters they have...you will forever be included in that number as Mikayla quickly exclaims "I have two brothers ..." or "We have three children in our family but two of us get to live here and one of us gets to live with Jesus." You are always included in everything that Mikayla and Malachi do such as getting a special art project dedicated to you each time they do one. As much as it stings us as mommy and daddy knowing you won't be here physically to enjoy these art projects we are grateful that you have not only been a big part of our lives and who we are but also theirs.
The rain has let up here in San Diego but the tears continue to come for all of us at different times with the deep pain and hole in our heart we have without you here. We are slowly adjusting to our new life with that forever hole in our heart and it isn't easy, in fact it's harder and brings more feelings then we can put words to. Yet, there is much to rejoice about knowing that because you came into this world we have grown both as a family and individually in ways that would never have been possible without you being part of the Wilde clan. Having you in our lives has opened our eyes in more ways then one but most importantly we have grown with our relationship with God even though our feelings continue to be a battle, many times towards Him. No matter how hard it is, even when the pain seems unbearable at times with no way out, we will continue to run this race to the finish and work through the emotions and feelings day by day, hour by hour. Through this pain and suffering we continue to have peace and joy with the fact that you are also in complete peace and celebrating the best three month birthday possible even though selfishly we wish you were still here. We also have hope and we can't wait to see you again in eternity.
Our hearts are filled with love for you,
Mommy, Daddy, Mikayla, & Malachi
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