Ezra Keller Wilde

Ezra Keller Wilde went to the arms of Jesus late yesterday afternoon after spending a beautiful, hard, heartbreaking yet joyous last three days with him.  Being both in the medical field we have witnessed a number of deaths and we couldn't have asked for it to be more peaceful and joyful yesterday when the time was right to withdraw his care. There was no struggle. There was no pain. We held him and watched this broken body here on earth for the first time be in complete peace. He was ready to go and we, as parents, can't describe how incredibly hard and painful it was to let him go but how beautiful it was to give him the gift of letting him go as he took those final breaths. The last three days we talked to many people up at Rady's Children Hospital and as they came in to say their final good-byes and we heard about the feelings and thoughts that we had no idea were even going on behind the scenes it was made very well known that Ezra's purpose here was complete but will never be forgotten. And that was just there at the hospital. Through Ezra we witnessed and felt strength, pain, joy, peace, sadness, miracles, and many, many answered prayers, the most important one being clarity in God's plan for our precious baby boy.  God is good and being able to rejoice in this time of suffering is something we never would have thought possible.  But with Him by our side, guiding us with wisdom and placing so many people beside us to help us walk through this journey with support and prayer we were able to do just that, rejoice in our pain and suffering. When Ezra left this world we truly celebrated.  We weren't expecting it to come naturally but it did.  An emotional celebration that we will never be able to describe fully.  One that came from deep, deep within our emotions that we have never felt.  Through our tears and heartache we were left with the most sincere smiles on our faces knowing that we can truly look back at this time and never have complete answers to some of our questions but be at peace about not knowing those answers because we see how God changed our own lives and the lives of others by allowing Ezra to be here and to be taken away.  We know we will grieve the loss of our sweet baby Ezra for many, many days, weeks, and years to come.  But we will the take advice from our beautiful nurse yesterday who said during those dark days to remember the overwhelming peace and joy that was felt in Ezra's room yesterday afternoon. God loves us and God loves Ezra and his love couldn't be more evident and felt. Instead of Ezra being delivered here on Earth yesterday, which was our original plan, he was delivered into heaven, which was God's plan and the best plan.

Thank you for your continued prayers during this journey.  They were felt, they were heard, and they were answered even if the final outcome was not what we had hoped for.

With love,

Jeff & Nicole

 Today we will be singing this song:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WLGmB45irPs